My birthday boy would be turning 15 today. I can’t even imagine. He left this earth when he was just 9 years old. The best day of my life was the day he entered this world. The worst was the day he left it.
As a parent have you ever tried to explain how amazing the blessing of a child is to a person who does not have children. There are no words to describe how it changes you, and no words to describe the love, or way to explain how your heart lives outside of your body. The same is true about explaining child loss to someone who has never lost a child. There are no words to describe how it changes you, no words to describe the pain, and no way to explain how a part of your heart died and has left a hole that just cant be filled.
It changes you. You question everything you ever believed. For the first time in your life you know the true meaning of life and yet at times you feel like your life has ended. The pain is not just emotional, it physically tears at your insides until you collapse in exhaustion. The hole that is left is gaping and because of it you often feel hollow.
BUT…..
It doesn’t end there. My Heavenly Father heals. He holds me in his arms like I held my own child. He walks with me through the valley of the shadow of death. He wraps his comfort around me like a warm blanket on cold stormy nights. There is HOPE because His Son, Jesus, who died for both you and me. Because of HOPE, I will be reunited with my son in heaven.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Psalms 23:4
We have this HOPE as an anchor for the soul firm and secure. Hebrews 6:19
Blessed are those who mourn, for the will be comforted. Matthew 5:4
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you are so loved and so is your beautiful boy
As I read this, my heart aches immensely for you….but as I continued reading, I felt a joy in my heart. God has blessed you with hope, joy and understanding. I admire your spirit and your strength!!!!!!
Footprints in the sand comes to my mind.
God is good. I see the beauty and wonder through you.
God bless you always.
Love that boy like I knew him. I do know him through you. He will be remembered until we are all together again in eternity. I love your writings; they just keep getting better. Happy Heavenly Birthday Landon.
Happy Heavenly birthday Landon. We may not be able to see you or touch you, but you will always be with us. Your short time on this earth left a huge mark as stated by your mother. You will NEVER be forgotten!!!
Our hearts and love are with you always. 💕